Say a little prayer

Today was a good day. Started off a little rocky. I woke up this morning thinking that I had to get my house immaculate for possible family coming into town.

It's been a tough week. I've been sick since last weekend so no house work has gotten done. I have a mountain of clothes to wash and the house was a wreck. Today was Taylor's bday. Taylor is my brother in law Zach's gf. She lives here in Shreveport and there was a party for her tonight at her grandparents house.

I knew it was a possibility that robin and emery my in laws could be coming over. I got kinda panicked when I woke up about a combo of money/financial issues our gas getting turned off earlier on in the week and my car's engine light is coming on. Let's not forget that Marbles had worms and I was sick too. Ugh all this stuff happened this week.

We aren't poor we aren't not paying out bills but moving into the Stratford house really set us back the last two months. We are making bt me and jet a little under 100k a year b/t the both of us. But we are paying around 2500 dollars a month in living costs bt rent utility bills and our house on pearl river that is for sale.

It's so agonizing. I've been positive I'm been pretty patient for Sarah Beth, but gosh dang it on wednesday when my ac on my car wasn't working and my cat got worms and my gas got turned off bc I had to "stretch" my money a few days I got mad!!!!

It's so frustrating. I know god is with us in all this I just got all human on him. I prayed later about it but I was pretty down all day on Wednesday . When the car ac went out and the dreaded check engine light cane on I was automatically going to fear as a reality. False evidence appearing real.

I'm a firm believer if you speak things the enemy is listening S
and will take notes of ur fears and weaknesses. I won't say what went thru my mind but I felt upset. I know this world isn't fair I know we live with evil everyday from the time we are born. But I had to get real with myself and think about my blessings. I have SO many. Too many to name while blogging from an iPhone.

When Justin told me we had a showing on the house today last night at 2:30 I have to admit I got a little excited. But I'm tired of being hopeful. We have in the last 10 mos had no offers to buy our house. We have had like three couples offer to do bond for deed. Were eventually when they can get approved after getting better credit will attempt to buy our house later. We had one couple we were negotiating with this about three weeks ago but suddenly they had to back off bc someone bought a plane ticket to Hawaii with their debit Card.

I can't help it though to get my hopes up Everytime! Justin last night suggested at 2 pm that we stop whatever we are doing and pray together. We did. I felt ever since an inner peace an excitement. I don't know if this couple will try to buy our house. But I know I spoke to my god this afternoon with my husband and I know he listened and heard.

When it's time he will make a way for me and I'll give him ALL the glory.

Tonight at the party I talked a lot to taylor's grandmother that threw the party. I love how god talks to me on ways that only I understand. He confirmed my prayer. I dont know if it's going to be with this couple or soon or later but someone at the table said "god answers prayers" I know this was him it's going to be ok. I just have faith.

Thursday night lights

This morning at work I got a text from jet asking if I'd rather go to the Cedar Creek game at Indepence stadium in Shreveport or stay home and watch the Lsu game. I'm bit a big Lsu fan. Infant I have a hard time liking them. I'm torn. It's like I want to go along with the bandwagon and love them but it just doesnt feel right . There's a history there and that's s whole blog subject. I'll get to it eventually I promise! I need the therapy!

Any way back on subject. This was a guy thing and I knew it. I secretly was hoping to go to the gym and try a spin class at six tonight. I let him choose and he choose to go to the game.

I love cedar creek. I went to quitman high school just 30 minutes down the road which was thought of as hickville. Justin's school on the other hand was a real "prep" school. At the time Justin used to make fin of guys at my school and I would get so bad and defend them. What I didn't realize was he was right.
A lot of those guys are still in quitman never went to school and are the same boys. I'm not trying to toot my own horn but Justin said that he thinks that I am the top of my class that is the most successful not the most successful but one of the top. His class was ridiculous. He has friends that ate doctors. One that went to duke then to MIT and works at MIT building machines he can't discuss bc he's under clearance. There's another guy he graduated with that works for Microsoft. And a girl in the class before him made a perfect score on her ACT. I wanted to meet her!

At first I was intimidated by Cedar Creek and I put up this huge front when Justin and i started dating. To be honest I was thrilled to be dating Justin. I knew he would go somewhere one day.

I now would give anything to let my kids get the education that justin did. There is something do special about the relationships those kids have. I have seen them cheer for their sports teams, excel in academics, and support one another in tragedies.

When Justin and I went to his ten year reunion last year I was super excited. I had been waiting for this event really since our senior year! It was like being back on school again.
My class didn't really have a reunion. Plus I had just lost fifty lbs! It wasn't what I remembered from high school but better! I mr et really got to talk to Justin's classmates at the danced and football games. So for the first time after idolizing his classmates ESP the girls I got to see there were real people and they were do nice! It was an awesome experience. To top it off was seeing my his and that night.

It was like seeing him on hid element. That was a very hard time for us. Justin had just told me about a month before his reunion that he was losing his contract with northrup grunman. So we were expecting him to lose his job possibly by the end of the month. We were hoping he was going to get a different position in a different dept that didn't happen!!!!
Anyway it was do wonderful to go home that weekend and return to where we started our relationship. It really was a big confidence booster for us ESP me. I felt like I saw jet in a whole new light he was do happy that night.

I think it's important for me to see sometimes that yes I've changed and grown from being the sixteen year old that fell in love with my husband coming from quitman high school. But on the flip side I'm still the same girl at heart and believe in the same things that I did then. And the best part is I got my dream life. Sure I thought id be making more money scratch that if I had known I would be making what I'm making now I'd be estactic! Inhad no reality of money then !!! I thought WE would both have it easier financially and I thought that we would own a nice house here. We do own s nice house in St Tammany I just thought this whole moving and paying rent and s mortgage thing would be no problem!!
But I got my husband! that was more important to mr than anything else.

I'm going to be including a pic of jet and I from lady year at the reunion and tonight! Enjoy!

Fall Fever

Sorry for the oh woe is me post the other day. I'm normally more positive but I have to admit its been a rough last ten months.

I'm home sick today. I got a cold last Friday and have been feeling gross ever since.

This time of year every year I start craving fall. Really it starts in mid August. This year I think it started in July!!! It has been abnormally hot here in Shreveport/East Texas this year. On fact I think it's been over 100 degrees for 60 days at this point. Next Thursday is the first day of fall.
I'm estatic to day the least!!!

So with further ado I would like to list some things that make me feel like it's really fall.
I found some very cute brown camel colored boots that ate too cute!!! I was looking for rainboots. It hasn't rained here in Shreveport since I moved here!!!! But I guess I was hoping to find some and maybe that would bring rain? See the pics below!

I have already decorated our house for fall. I'm no Martha but this is my favorite time of year. I have Aldo gone to bath&body works and bought four hand soaps in hopes that these would bring fall weather!!!!

I made a crockpot Weight watchers recipe a few weeks ago that was awesome!! It was pumpkin and oatmeal based. It turned out pretty good. Justin turned his nose up St it. (he hates pumpkin) and at first I wasn't sure it turned out right. After the fact I think it turned out fine it just didn't look like the picture.
Here's the recipe.
6 cups water
3 cups of pumpkin raw I used the canned pumpkin probably not weight watchers savy but pumpkins weren't in season!!
1 1/2 cups oatmeal uncooked
1/2 cup honey
1tsp cinnamon
1/2 salt
1/4 tsp nutmeg

Put all ingredients in crockpot
Cook low for 8 hours
Serving is 1 cup
5 points
Delicious cold! Tastes like pumpkin pie!

Also I made these cute little pretzel hug things I found on this blog
So fun but I had to put them away!!

Hanging curtains

Tonight I decided to cook chicken rotel and pasta salad after coming home from work. It was really yum.
I finally convinced jet to hang my new curtains we purchased. I'm really excited bc the entire time we have been married I've never convinced jet to hang curtains! He just doesn't like doing that kind of stuff example here in picture below. I have also included pics of myself and Marbles.

I'm currently watching the ABC special about Jackie Kennedy's tapes being released. I think shes fantastic but sounded really lonely on the tapes.

Tomorrow is hump day. Really looking forward to the weekend.

I have included some pictures of our home also. Enjoy!!

Fresh start

I think a fresh start is in order. I haven't written in my blog in so long.

I really want to get into it but its difficult. It doesn't help have the time I want to write when I'm no where near a computer and in addition to that my personal computer went copute. (is that a word?)

No I think about a year ago I was the most together I have ever been. I was losing weight. I was confident in myself. I had my house and home in order so to speak and then WHAM the move happened. Don't get me wrong. I wanted the move. I prayed for the move for two years.

Have you ever wanted something so bad and then you get it and its like everything just goes crazy?

I have gone over it over and over again in my mind but its like everything changed the week of November 24, 2010. My weight watchers plan changed, my office changed, Justin's job changed, my lifestyle changed, my whole life changed.

I think back to that gross apartment we were forced to live in for months and I am so grateful for our Stratford house. The last 10 months have been unbelievable. wow almost 10 months. We are almost there.

I have gained about 12 lbs since I moved. It depresses me. Yes I sit here while my JET is at his sundyschool social thing and I just finished a swiss roll. EW. I just wish I could find that inner strength to be me again.

I don't like this feeling.

There have been some changes I have adapted to.

1) I don't pine for my house in pearl river anymore. I thought I would never get over that. I had visions of soaking in my big tub and hearing my the carpet crinkle under my feet on early winter mornings. I missed the quiet nights and the oak trees at night. The star filled sky at night on Hidden Oaks Lane while I did my( monthly ) walk. --- anyone want to buy a house????

I have gotten over it. My life is here. This is what I wanted. God gives you the desires of your heart right if you delight in him?? So why is it that when he gives you your deepest desire your deepest want that you have to go and make reasons to be unhappy?

Why am I unhappy. There are a few reasons. much more good than bad.

Work- I wont even go there. Lets just say that I feel like I don't fit in. I feel like I'm starting all over. I desperately miss my old co workers. sigh.

Weight Watchers. I just can't get in the grove of the new plan. I haven't really honestly whole heartly tried. I have a little but not full force try.

The house that is still for sale. I feel like part of themissing piece lies on 4/10's of an acre in St. Tammany parish. If we could just sell that blame house. I used to have so much faith. I do have faith dont' get me wrong. I know my Lord made a way for me. I know that he will come through. We recently had a couple try to do bond for deed again but this time we actually entertained the idea. We counteroffered, and then we come to find out they were victim's of identity theft. I asked God to take it away if it wasn't a good thing. I know that my Lord has my best interests at heart. He will make it right. I just got to use this as a time to grow in patience. He is building us up. But the mortgage payment in a house I have FINALLY severed ties in is becoming a ball and chain.

Thats pretty much all that I'm unhappy about.

So I think that tomorrow I will start a new. With work, organization, strength, focus, the holy spirit, and weight watchers all in tow.

What is the saying ? try and try again?

Romans 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.