It's been a tough week. I've been sick since last weekend so no house work has gotten done. I have a mountain of clothes to wash and the house was a wreck. Today was Taylor's bday. Taylor is my brother in law Zach's gf. She lives here in Shreveport and there was a party for her tonight at her grandparents house.
I knew it was a possibility that robin and emery my in laws could be coming over. I got kinda panicked when I woke up about a combo of money/financial issues our gas getting turned off earlier on in the week and my car's engine light is coming on. Let's not forget that Marbles had worms and I was sick too. Ugh all this stuff happened this week.
We aren't poor we aren't not paying out bills but moving into the Stratford house really set us back the last two months. We are making bt me and jet a little under 100k a year b/t the both of us. But we are paying around 2500 dollars a month in living costs bt rent utility bills and our house on pearl river that is for sale.
It's so agonizing. I've been positive I'm been pretty patient for Sarah Beth, but gosh dang it on wednesday when my ac on my car wasn't working and my cat got worms and my gas got turned off bc I had to "stretch" my money a few days I got mad!!!!
It's so frustrating. I know god is with us in all this I just got all human on him. I prayed later about it but I was pretty down all day on Wednesday . When the car ac went out and the dreaded check engine light cane on I was automatically going to fear as a reality. False evidence appearing real.
I'm a firm believer if you speak things the enemy is listening S
and will take notes of ur fears and weaknesses. I won't say what went thru my mind but I felt upset. I know this world isn't fair I know we live with evil everyday from the time we are born. But I had to get real with myself and think about my blessings. I have SO many. Too many to name while blogging from an iPhone.
When Justin told me we had a showing on the house today last night at 2:30 I have to admit I got a little excited. But I'm tired of being hopeful. We have in the last 10 mos had no offers to buy our house. We have had like three couples offer to do bond for deed. Were eventually when they can get approved after getting better credit will attempt to buy our house later. We had one couple we were negotiating with this about three weeks ago but suddenly they had to back off bc someone bought a plane ticket to Hawaii with their debit Card.
I can't help it though to get my hopes up Everytime! Justin last night suggested at 2 pm that we stop whatever we are doing and pray together. We did. I felt ever since an inner peace an excitement. I don't know if this couple will try to buy our house. But I know I spoke to my god this afternoon with my husband and I know he listened and heard.
When it's time he will make a way for me and I'll give him ALL the glory.
Tonight at the party I talked a lot to taylor's grandmother that threw the party. I love how god talks to me on ways that only I understand. He confirmed my prayer. I dont know if it's going to be with this couple or soon or later but someone at the table said "god answers prayers" I know this was him it's going to be ok. I just have faith.
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